A year has passed since a friendship was made
Many have come not many have stayed
Friendship is built in many a ways
Our friendship I know is not just a phase
Laughter and tears we have shared it all
When I came over we had such a ball
Constant chatter over cuppa teas
Was very refreshing like a cool light breeze
I know in you I’ve made a friend for all time
You are defiantly my partner in crime
It won’t be long till our next meet
Having a laugh over the cake we shall eat
Illness is what brought us together
But in you I know I have a friend forever

You don’t have to see it to know that its real
Sometimes I think life gave me it’s raw deal
Why me I ask to no reply
The days I just sit here wanting to cry
A body that was once so fit
Broken and torn I now have to admit
I never knew anything could be so cruel
I’m waiting for the day it says April Fool
But sadly this illness is never a joke
It doesn’t care for all us folk
Some day’s it’s hard to see anything clear
We plod along in a very low gear
Putting on a mask to hide away
Wanting to join friends who are out to play
Though through this illness I’ve learnt a lot
To renew relationships I had once forgot

What did I want when I was growing up
A cat, a fish or even a pup
A life that was simple no worries or cares
Surely that would have been fair
A good education to get a good job
To be fit and active not becoming a slob
To find a nice man to spend all my years
To hold me close and forget any fears
To take nice holiday and bathe in the sun
To party with mates having so much fun
Gone are the days when I did that with ease
As my body became ill with a horrid disease
Try and stay positive to forget all my woes
And accept that my body is now mighty slow
But still I cannot take a smile of my face
As I know it could be worse in a more horrid place

What does this group mean to you?
Some light-hearted banter when you’re feeling blue
A place where you’re safe to share your fears
No-one here will laugh at your tears
It’s not just a place to talk of being ill
It’s the place to share your smallest of thrills
You can watch and read, comment and post
It’s not a place to brag or boast
A place for sufferers, carers and friends
A place you can come and you don’t have to pretend
A safe haven place for us all to be
What more could you want from A Better ME

What will make you smile today?
Money, fancy cars or a holiday away?
All of these will be nice for a while
But will they leave a permanent smile?
Are gifts the things that do it for you?
Take your time and think things through
Though sometimes I don’t like the thoughts in my head
Days like this I just want my bed
But will hiding away make all things better?
Not for me my face just gets wetter
So what things will make me smile today?
Friendships I know that are not far away

It’s not just today you have the thoughts in your head
And often think what may have been said
What would he look like? What would he do?
No doubt he would support all you’ve been through
When growing up there would have been fights
Then getting on well morning noon and the night
But he would have protected you like big brothers should
And give you a hug to make you feel good
You often go to the place where he is laid
The love that you feel will never ever fade
One day you will meet and a hug will be shared
He knows from watching you have always cared
You may not have met him and seem far apart
But he will always have a place inside of your heart

As I feel the tears stream from my eye
I look up above and think “oh god why”
There is no shame in shedding tears
Don’t be embarrassed in front of your peers
Tears are not always for upset and pain
Sometimes at happiness you remember again
Tears of joy, through laughter and fun
Through dancing around playing in the sun
Tears of upset, worry and woe
For the life that you have no had to let go
A sign of weakness it is not
We feel like we’re in a place that time just forgot
The last few days they just seem to flow
From real life events or a TV show
Nothing can stop it just let it all out
The tears that I cry, what’s that all about?

Looking through the window, what do I see?
People passing by, children giggling with glee
The trees looking bare shedding their leaves
Winter is setting in time to roll down your sleeves
The mornings are colder as frost starts to settle
Icicles hanging of all things that are metal
The daylight hours are less than before
Getting up in the dark becomes such a chore
Heating is on and warm clothing out
I don’t really fancy having a long walkabout
Staying indoors snuggled and warm
I like hiding away from a cold winter storm
Hot Chocolate is needed a hot water bottle too
You don’t want your body to start turning blue
But fear not my friends it will all soon pass
And spring will be here with nice fresh green grass….

The last 4 weeks I’ve been feeling good to fair
I even managed to do something with my frizzy hair
Spent a few days out with friends from afar
Driving around singing along in the car
I gave them lessons in making cuppa teas
I’ve never known girls to bicker like these
I’ve even been a bit hyper the last few days
The energy I had left me amazed
I even left the bed in my room
Making the most of this mini boom
Catching up with the TV I’ve missed
Adding a rash to the growing sick list
Though sadly today my body has slowed down
But with my friend Bundy I have no time to frown

Up before the alarm clock calls
I hearing the muttering from behind the walls
They say the sun is out its fine and dry
I look out the window not a cloud in the sky
I run downstairs and help pack up the car
A journey to make that is not to a far
Shorts and t-shirt, bucket and spade
Sunglasses and hat to give me some shade
The feeling of joy when my feet touch the sand
Building a castle with my own fair hands
Run to the sea on this hot summers day
Splashing around enjoying the play
Crisp blue waters warm like a bath
Hoping my life doesn’t stray from this pat
Sandwiches eaten, ice cream in my hand
The sun beating hard my skin is nice and tanned
Photos are taken and memories are made
We stay till the evening when the sun starts to fade
Strolling back to the car with a smile on my face
I hope it’s not long till I return to this place

The thoughts in my head whizz around all day
Why can’t I just get them to stay away?
I don’t know what they mean or what imp to do
I just wish they would give some kind of clue
My heart weighs heavy is this grief
Who stole my life come back here you thief
You play with my thoughts feelings and touch
Someday for me it all gets too much
I’m begging you know just please let me go
I’m fed up now of putting on a show
I just want to be free and let it all out
Stand on the roofs and give a huge shout
I feel like I have lost all of control
I’m falling deeper inside the black hole
Is there some light I can see at the end?
I just want to cry I just can’t pretend
I know tomorrow the day may seem bright
But as today goes on I have lost all my fight